RAGE!!

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Well, it's official. I am NEVER attending a scholastic event EVER!! I'm in a rut, and on the verge of going insane. I came back from the awards ceremony. It was a complete FUCKING WASTE OF MY FUCKING TIME! They would've just give us the fucking papers that says," THANK GOD, YOU'RE NOT FUCKING MISERABLE FAILURES!!"I only got 2 things called "certificates", not that I actually care about it 'cause I don't. This is the 2nd time of feeling abject public humiliation. 1st time was from the language fair. Should've said no when I had the chance, but I just had to fucking enter it. Winning 4th FUCKING PLACE IS NOT FUCKING GOOD ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!! I've NEVER felt this fucking humiliated in my life. Earlier, my algebra 2 teacher won't stop being a bitch about us FUCKING FAILING AND BEING FUCKING MISERABLE FUCKING FAILURES!! I know he somewhat( emphasis on somewhat) care about us passing the goddamn class, but dude, GROW A FUCKING PAIR AND MOVE THE FUCK ON!!!!!! Damn, I'm beginning to fall deep into my cynicism and madness and in need of a shrink. All I can do now is bury myself into my work until I die from exhaustion, starvation and some other natural causes yet to come. GODDAMMIT I WANNA FUCKING KILL SOMETHING RIGHT NOW!! I don't have the balls to cry anymore; it's all been converted into more anger and resentment. Now my mother was talking to me while riding from the satanic (awards) ceremony about one of the seniors getting 87 something grant in scholarships, and my music is ON. I don't EVER want to talk about this disastrous event. Also she brought up about me needing to get more community service hours to get a CHORD!! REALLY, A MOTHAFUCKIN' CHORD?!! IT'S JUST A FUCKING PIECE OF YARN THAT SAYS YOU DIDN'T WASTE YOUR SUMMER AND SCHOOL YEAR DOING FUCKING NOTHING!!! I understand that you care about my academic success, mom, but that's NOT WHAT I FUCKING WANT!! All in all, I'm just fuckin' pissed, irritated and batshit insane.

That is all for today. Good night!
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BlueDragonKaiser's avatar
Ah don''t let pointless ceremonies get you down. They're like yesterday's lunch specials. They last for an hour then the next day people forget all about them. I never knew you entered the language fair. Sorry to hear about that but if it makes you feel any better I once entered the math rally and came in dead last. Compared to me you did great. Believe me Mr. O's rage is nothing new. He ALWAYS goes on like that. Don't let it get to you. And I agree, the chords are pointless, but they make it seem like you need it in order to graduate which is definitely NOT the case. Well just get some rest tonight and blow off some steam. We'll talk tomorrow if you want.